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Every moment, every thought, an echo in your mind
Every treasured lullaby you're forced to leave behind
Every broken moment, every twisted fantasy
Every empty shadow, every lonely melody
Holding knives against your skin with tears inside your eyes
Fighting back the happiness, yet fighting back the cries
How could one be joyous at a moment such as this?
Something could be stopping you, but nothing truly is…

ExistenceBroken, empty promises, a world so dull and dead
Leaving me to suffer as I hang upon this thread
Tears of glass begin to fall, a heartbeat made of stone
I was left to struggle for a worthless, lovely throne

Dreadful, lost emotions, slowly flowing through my veins
Aching thoughts and torture causing fatal bits of pain
Shadows swallow all I was and all I am to be
Slicing off my wings, and now demanding I be free

Poison sneaking through my breaths and deep into my soul
Pieces lost have been replaced to make a damaged whole
Anger rushing through my mind, for me, for them, for this
I have felt emotion for a thought that can't exist…

Make Me ForgetJust make it stop...
make it all go away!
Please...

I need to forget...
forget it all...
If I don't soon,
I'm going to break...

Please just make all the pain go away...
please...help me...I can't handle this anymore...

I miss it too much...
I miss him too much...
I miss the love I felt for him...the happiness I felt with him...
So please...
Stop it...stop this pain and make me forget my treasured
memories with him...
Please...

I'm becoming too unstable...
I can't handle this pain, it's not good for me...
I try so hard to forget him, to ignore my broken heart...but it's
just not working!

I just can't forget him...
I can'

i used to think you were realwhen i look at you
passing by me with
those filled-hatred eyes,

i just think;
yeah if it comes
to blame someone
you'll always blame me

for the pain
and your self-pity
for when you
look at you in the
mirror and your veins cry,

but you still
don't seem to accept
you actually did
something wrong

so why the self-hatred, honey?

if you were right and
i let your back bleed,
if i didn't care seeing
your fist-bones break, when
you kept on hitting the walls
as i twisted the knife on you

why the constant
repugnance of yourself,
if it's me, the one with
the mortal weapon of
betrayal in my hand?

(it might be true,
t

Behind this MaskBehind this mask
Is the real
Not the fake

Behind this mask
Hides the ugly
And the hate

Behind this mask
Not a smile
Nor a laugh

Behind this mask
No charming word
No loving act

Behind this mask
A hurting soul
All tears flow

Behind this mask
Sometimes
We all go

AcheAche, ache, ache
The seams of my heart unravel
Unwinding themselves wistfully
Whimsical delusion
Disastrous confusion
Battered and beaten to powder
To a damaged, eternal void
I am only one half of my former self
I am but a shell full of dust
Rotting, decaying, dissolving

Learning To TrustTell me a story about your life
And I'll tell you mine
Give me a reason not to lie
So I'll tell you the truth, next time

Whisper a secret in my ear
And I'll tell you a tale
Forgive me but this is my fear
I despise talking in detail

Give me a reason not to scream
And I'll tell you why it hurts
It's like acid in my bloodstream
This terror of being attached

Sorry if I ask for too much
For I am still learning
How to Trust

Just Let Me DieLet me die with dignity
It's the least that you could do
I dug this grave for me
But you can lay here too

And, no, it's not your fault
You don't have to say goodbye
This blood is on my hands
So don't you even try

I can't get a fresh breath
Your words hanging in the air
As still as certain death
But they're getting us nowhere

And you'll cry your last tear
As we lie here in waiting
Just to be forgotten
Our memory fading

Our lips press together
In one final kiss
Our one final effort
To re-right our sins

And it's here we'll die together
Just broken memories
We don't have to wait forever
To hear the angels sing

But still I

Back in TimeIf only I could go back in time,
To a time when the future was all mine.
I had choices to make and dreams to fulfill,
I was free to be me, to display my freewill.
Now, decisions have been made beyond my control,
Tell me, how did I dig myself into this hole?
I long to be free, free to be "me",
To be the "me" that I was meant to be.

Undeceased

It's just a matter of time
Before I leave myself behind

I've almost pushed everything away from myself
And soon there will be no more reasons to beg for help
I'm very slowly dissipating, and as this continues on there will be nothing else

I am just too tired
The ending is all I desire

I silently quiver as the waves of life crash against my hollow shell
Striking endlessly, and after living through this I don't even fear the depths of hell
Because being this strong means I've accomplished killing every emotion I've ever felt

This life of mine shall be undone
My era of hopelessness has begun

I could be so more much than t

The Art of PretendingI feel your words,
like a slap in the face.
For a second I hesitate,
before fixing a smile in place.
Make-up can only cover so much.
Tears burn skin.
Externally
they will heal.
Internally
they kill.
My words, you dismiss,
as if I were a stupid child.
I ignore you.
I pretend you didn't mean it.
I redo my eyeliner,
just to look away.

Little Girl

Dear imagination, can't you be the thing you were
Butterflies and daffodils and happiness so pure
Sunny skies and lullabies and dreams of what could be
Hidden worlds and wonderlands of things they couldn't see
Shining gowns and silver crowns for dancing with the prince
Twirling with excitement, though the others weren't convinced

Dear intimidation, did you find it to be true
All I ever needed was an overdose of you
Silly stares and laughter slowly flood a child's mind
Making me abandon every daydream I could find
Lost beneath the shadows of the sky so dark and dead
Far too weak to turn around, yet scared of things ahead

Dear destr

Shards of MeShards of Me:

My weeping sorrows
Like shards of a lonely heart
Remain embedded...

-Chen Yuan Wen, 22nd April 2012

Struggling at LifeStruggling at Life:

We're reaching out for stars
In the depths of the night.
We're struggling at bars
Shut away from the light!

I've seen the way we act
When we are fighting for our lives.
But we're killing all our brothers
On the point of our knives.

I've seen the violence
Spewing from the poorest of peaks.
We are the rats, caged up
In the darkness we seek-

A little path, a little home;
Just a place to call our own.
Everything we ever tried
Try to win before I die.

Hopeless, lost; shot from the skies
I am the martyr, burned for the sin of their lies.
I am the people, screaming for the justice be served
I am the sound that

Alcoholics Anonymous"Alcoholics Anonymous"

I know I can do this
I need to put the bottle down
I will clench both my fists
And keep my feet on the ground
I know I can win
I need to conquer this trait
I will try to fight myself
And not drink another day

But its just one more bottle
A shot would be even smaller
Yet every time I drink
The trees look so much taller
My imagination runs haywire
These drinks don't fix anything
Instead my mind conspires
And brings out the worst in me

True feelings I can't face
Watching the world spin
A small price for its foul taste
Destroying my insides within
I have a terrible disease
So expensive and so vain
But

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by ~InconsequentialPoet, Apr 10, 2012, 12:18:05 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

I feel so worthless, without any purpose,
You don't really need me, that's plain to see.
You want me to smile? I will for a while...
But deep inside, I will continue to hide,
This feeling of worthlessness that I just can't address.
When will I feel, really begin to heal?
My fear is never, I'll be like this forever.

Foreverby ~InconsequentialPoet

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~kitcatclaz Sep 4, 2012 Professional Photographer

Wow, very expressive. short & too the point. Hopefully
it will not be forever, your smile is needed in other places.
Hugs for you

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~InconsequentialPoet Sep 8, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

Thank you! Your kind words are very much appreciated!! <3

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~kitcatclaz Sep 10, 2012 Professional Photographer

your most welcome

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~MiyuCross12 Apr 10, 2012

i used to feel like this. its not pleasant.

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!Blackfoxtails Apr 10, 2012 Hobbyist Artist

Nice, I feel lime that at home but I'm working to try and turn some of my life around.

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~Heathen-God Apr 10, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

reminds me of the story i'm writing, but if this is autobiographical and if i'm correct in my writing, then things do heal. Fear ebbs and breaks before the next and newest of your obstacles begin to make their appearance. Still i really like the rythm and feel of this poem

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~InconsequentialPoet Apr 10, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

thank you very much! I really appreciate your comment, it means a lot to me.
And, yes it is autobiographical.

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~Heathen-God Apr 10, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

oh, well lets hope i'm right. I'm glad that the things i say can have a good effect on somebody...instead of insult lol

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~Eredith Apr 10, 2012

Depressing, lots of emotion.
I like it.
*Mezzo

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~InconsequentialPoet Apr 10, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

Thank you!

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